The Spear

Look around. What have you seen that was not seen by Him first? What have you conceived of in your mind which has not been first imagined by Him? You take for granted the works of His hands.

I am exhausted. Waiting on God can be one of the hardest things. I have walked. I have learned. I have leaned. I have rested. I have followed. I have fallen and gotten back up. I have sat in the rain and cried out for help. I have called for the presence of the one my heart loves. Now I wait.

We all have our own misconceptions about who God is. We aren’t so much born with these misconceptions as much as they are taught to us through life and religion in its various forms. More often than I care to admit I have been frustrated and confounded by a new God given revelation because it did not fit into my preconceived notions of who God was and how He worked.  I either saw him as a tyrant, sitting on his throne waiting to judge me for everything I had ever done wrong, or a soft spoken hippie. It was God the Almighty with lightning bolts of wrath, or sweet Jesus who was hugging people and saying in a soft voice, “Please don’t fight.” Wow was I wrong. On both accounts. God is the most amazing person I have ever met.

I am locked in a world that only knows and loves darkness. Yet, I am a seeker of light. I know the King of all kings. I follow Him, and He looks after me. I see his face like a radiant and beautiful light that reflects pure joy and rest. Never have I seen him weary, nor have I seen him concerned.